Tuesday, January 27, 2009
NO!

oh no!! i wasted so much time!! i didnt do anything on sunday! and nothing yesterday! cuz i was out visiting the whole day!! and yeah....i fell sick! im so so sick!! almost fainted yesterday! my head was like spinning!! and i was in heels! horrible!

sick...i couldnt eat any of the goodies!! im so so sad!! argh!! nono!! and even though i couldnt eat some stuff....my relatives forced me to eat!! keropok...kueh bangkit...chesnuts...curry puff...keuh tart...kueh lapis and buah kuluak....lontong....nonya mee...chap chai bee hoon...curry...ngoh hiang....udang kering roll...so much more!!! so now my throat is in dire pain and my nose is running non stop!! yeah my stomach is in a mess too....
and my granfathers 5th brothers wife gave me this bitter concoction made of this bitter leaf from her garden formy throat.....sucks really...had to finish a whole cup! i think i scared my throat to get better...i could hear my body screaming no more of this!! no more!!
"you better get better throat! or i have to drink more!"

I came home from visiting counted my money : D and watched this cool show on axn! it was with zhang li and karen mok and tt girl who acted shaolin soccer as the goal keeper! but yeah....was sick....so had to sleep early....trust me sleeping early so didnt help!!

i woke up at 11!! no...its bad right??!! yeah!! and im still sick! and i have so much to study and do! how am i gonna stay up late?? and i still have to go to my aunts house today!! and help my mom next week when our relatives come over!.....tired.....cny....im busier than some of my chinese frens....

I Confess I Messed Up
11:49 AM


Monday, January 26, 2009
reunion dinner

first of all! fauzi chose sarah! ya! so happy for her...now she feels like a pokemon hahaha!!

secondly my cuz got a scolding from his gf cuz my aunt interregated her about calling me candy face! and now i am so guilty!! omg!! so so guilty! she must think i am such a bitch! haha!! wait tts not supposed to be funny...i mean...yeah...guilty...i am! serious! anyways...i apologised to him...and he still thinks im faking it so wtr! to be h with it!

thirdly chinese new year is so so fun!! reunnion was so fun!! eating is so fun!! hahaha! so happy eating all the good food! yummy!

fourthly managed to actually have a good convo with my cuz! yay!! we usually fight and argue so this was cool! hahaha! she is gonna hate me if she reads this! she will be like "wth" anyways....

fifth!! yayayayayayayayayyayayayayayayaya!!! i got my most fav flower!! i got my hydrangeas!! i am so elated!! jumping and jumping!! hahahaha!! im so hyper now! my dream flower!! purple hydrangeas!! hahaha!! the hydrangeas were all so nice!! but the one i picked had a nice mix of pink and purple which technically was a comprimise with my mom cuz she kept saying pink for cny! lols!! so yeah its still purple! yay!! she promised tt if it grows well she will get me the white one and the one tt is purple-ish white!! hahaha!! tt one was lovely! white but a tint shade of purple!!

sixth!! i am home now! listening to good music and studying! actually not now studying....but after posting studying! finally lols!! i am gonna make full use of my time...which is not much...after mass and visiting....so studying now is goooooooodddddd : D

so yeah peace-ing out now!

I Confess I Messed Up
12:07 AM


Sunday, January 25, 2009
weirdness day

so today was super weird it was like weird

sar emailed me about fauzi . About how he is thinking of going back to his ex....and how much she loves him...and how she is really really hurting like crazy....i dk what to do...i have not had any experience with love or having a guy put "happily single" as his status, after all her hints....

he is HORRIBLE why does she still love him? i dk....but she must have her reasons and i trust her...i trust tt he must have been really nice and amazing, which is what she tells us...he completes her sentences....knows what she wants....knows what she is thinking....massages her feet without her asking....making her feel like so good and happy! tells the most funniest jokes....chemistry unbeatable! but he treats her like crap sometimes...he ignored her and before this problem they were having a cold war! and he purposely sat next to her in school as if nothing happened and expected her to speak to him! and now....she is head over heels in love with him....she doesnt want to lose him....and i cant help her, i dont know how...

and then!! omg!! my cuz has a gf!! at first i tot it was cool...until my suspicions were answered....it was a girl i totally dont like! with my little experience with her...i just dont like her....i really dont to the core! she called me candy face!! candy face! omg!! and when she saw me today she said "oh my!" wtr...im super pissed with him...choosing her to be his stead??

i dont like her at all!! why!!?? anyways....i hope she doesnt break his heart....i wish them all the bestlah...cant do anything about it...

yeah! and i didnt do any studying today at all....im so behind in my work! and studies!! im gonna go study nowlah...not like i have a choice...although its so bloody late...but its my fault for going out yesterday...and today...and 2morrow i will be having church and reunion dinner....STRESS

and you! you! you are the T in my stress!

I Confess I Messed Up
12:59 AM


Friday, January 23, 2009
Happy Day!!

yay!! so today i went out with me friends! im so happy! at first i was super tired...but seeing them was amazing!! i miss my IJ frens so badly its so nice to be able to meet me IJ frens again!! IJ!! IJ rocks to the core!! hahahaha!! just us gals! as usual! we had so much fun talking about the past...and what going on now in our lives and all our studies! it was just great meeting up!! i had so so much!! fun!!

we went to meet at burger king and then walked to taka! where we met ah wong!! hahaha!! ah wong! gosh! she said tt she say me from a far! but i didnt see her...apparently she has been walking next to us! but i didnt see her lols!! anyways it was so funny!! so coincidental that she was meeting my classmates too hahaha!! we talked together with hazel while walking to taka! and ah wong told me that VG said my name! im so shocked!! hahaha!! well actually they were at the library and i was engrossed with my website! hahaha!! and VG was like hey ah wong isnt tt sarah...hahaha! ah wong was so angry with me! she walked pass me so many times and i didnt see her! hahaha!! all because of itls!! : D oh and i said VG in front of her sorry 10! i think we need to change nickname again....im so not used to saying his real name lah hahaha!!
oh yeah! and 10 you know what she said??? she told me VG was a real nice guy...cuz i was like hey you and VG are like super close its so weird! then she was like...he is actually a really nice guy!! and she listed examples...but i dont rmb them....haha! Im happy for her than! at least he is really nice to her! : D so when she left she did her thing...lol she said tt she would go to topshop to pass time! hahaha!! so funny!! oh btw i didnt know topshop moved! i was like huh? where is it?? slow! i know!!

anyways! yeah so she left cuz she had to go meet fam and tessa...and also she doesnt know me frens tt well...yeah so she left. I and me frens went to pepper lunch which i hate cuz its so not worth it! bloody rip off!! so expensive! so i and hazel shared! it was so fun! hahaha!! caroline and kellyn were competing, throwing m&m in their mouth! Joanne got so many prank calls as usual....and i and hazel just sat there laughing and laughing non STOP!!

we made our stop at the loo...and then talked then went window shopping! ZARA!! was so crowded!! so was FOREVER 21...zara is so expensive :( all the nice clothes...!
we went to starbucks at wisma! and there was this weird guy! so hilarious he had a muffin and a cup of coffee...and he kept looking at all the girls....and everytime he looked he would giggle happily and flirt-ish-ly it was so funny!

I and hazel shared a caramel frap venti no whip cream....save money and more coffee...anyways! IT WAS SO GOOD!! so yummy and sweet and lovely.....ahhhh....just amazing!!
we had so much fun talking and talking! I LOVE THEM SO MUCH!! LOVE!! LOVE!! LOVE!! they make my life interesting and fun!! talking about all the scandals and KELLYN GOING TO UNI MELBOURNE!! at 18!! NO WAY!! im so jealous...not only tt! she will come back less often! so gonna miss her so much! she is FAN-TAS-TIC! by the time we get to uni she will be done and working! its crazy scary!

i laughed until my throat is all sore....wow i typed so so much! hahaha!! im so high and hyper!! after a day of carboxylic compounds and reactions....this is a much needed break! happinessdont come easy! : D

thank you all for making my day this wonderful! i miss you guys so much see you all soon babes! : D!

I Confess I Messed Up
11:50 PM


Tuesday, January 20, 2009
im sorry, its all i can say

10!! wont be able to go for cats the musical! this is so not fair!! ....cuz its too expensive!! darn!! i dont know if i want to go anymore....no one is going with me....and i cant go for it alone...it will be weird! argh!! but i really want to go!! so badly!!

yeah and i cant seem to finish the website design part....how am i gonna start with the content if i cant finish the design! im wasting to much time!

today i took a nap for 3 hours! i am so dead! now i have so much work to do and its all pilling up!! plus! im still tired! still!

omg....omg....im never gonna pass this exam! be it get 3.8 gpa! its crazy impossible!!

I Confess I Messed Up
7:25 PM


Monday, January 19, 2009
whatever it takes

okay...why is it everytime i let out on my blog?? my poor poor bloggie...yes there goes the days where i update you almost everyday about happiness in poly....

its such shit to just sit down and reflect and realise what a mess your life is in....your priorities and rubbish are all mixed up....worrying about petty things so that you will forget and wont think about the more important things to worry....

and worst! watching everyone else sail through while you struggle...and you doubt yourself....and you know whats worse....there is a guy at my next block who is trying to commit suicide right now....he is on the ledge and is siting at the ledge of the kitchen window....how crazy is tt there is a huge crowd and a fire engine and firemen...they blocked of the are and they are inflating a huge white and yellow base pillow thing so tt is he does fall he will be safe...

i cant believe all this is happenning at once its crazy...and my mom is writing a book about catolics....of all things....im happy for her....but i know once she starts this she would not stop...and there goes my mom....i will be pretty much non existent...

what is going on with....my frens....my family....my life.....

im having problems with monkey...everytime i talk to him he never fails to insult me...and unconsciously i always give him a reason too....why?? why cant i just act mature and accept everything take everything in a mature way....relaxed and practicall??...no i just act on impulse and irrationally....

for someone who thinks so much..what happened?? why...why? do i act like a whining kid...who needs attention??!! and i never stop i dont....i even insult others and act cool and smart....what is wrong with me!! argh! and i have so much work!! im am so stressed i have no time for monkey's problems anymore!! and now i heard monkeys "gf" wants to be my friends!! she wants to be FRIENDSS!!!

what am i going to do!

I Confess I Messed Up
6:47 PM


Saturday, January 17, 2009

so i had drama and i was "interviewed" it was the funniest interview that ever happened to me....anyways...i think it went well...lol...


cant wait for symphonia~!! hahaha!!

I Confess I Messed Up
5:25 PM


Sunday, January 11, 2009
lolness

so open house is OVER!! im so happy cuz like i get to get away from bob!
hahahaha!! finally!! i have freedom from tt ass!!
i do miss all the attention on me though....hahahaha!!! but yeah! it was tiring! and embarrassing so yeah! lol! im gonna miss laughing at bob, when he gets all laughy and high when Rene is around! hahaha!! well than again rene loves bob too hahaha!! so hmm... =p

i am going to start studying... i hope cuz i need too...lol but i am so busy! hahaha!! i am going to start studying now lah...hahaha! i just need to stop distracting my self unconsciously...lol...i just slip into my thinking "sessions" and all these feelings drown me...lolness!! i need to pull myself together! hahaha!!

well yeah so anyways! i managed to settle some stuff tt have been bothering me for a while
thank goodness!! im much lighter and happy now!! : D

i miss my frens so much!! i miss my classmates!! argh! 3 whole days not being with them!! cant wait for 2morrow!!

byes bloggy till the hols!

I Confess I Messed Up
11:15 PM

The wound begins to close in on itself, to protect what is hurting so much.

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~Name: Sarah Jane Gianna Anthony Dramamama no.4
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